[ki_]

i was kinda in the same position. 2-3 years in. i couldnt concentrate one bit, i showed up to work every day and did almost nothing. It's kinda a long time ago and i dont really remember how that episode ended. I think i slowly got back into it.

But even now, 6 years later. I still have days/weeks where im not motivated at all. And i have had periods where i worked 18 hours a day with full joy. I cant really put my finger on it. I dont know what causes this. I havent really looked into it tbh. Even though i should, because when im lazy, i feel really bad about it.

I recently had this problem again, im looking into it now. Im experimenting with quitting caffeine. quitting endless internet content. Maybe exercise. I dont think its food related. Anyway, it's to soon for me to tell, i wish i had tried to fix this earlier, so i could give u an answer.

Thank you for making this post, curious what others will say.

[otachack]

Working 18 hours a day sounds massively productive but it is not sustainable. You are bound to hit a wall at some point, which sounds like your experience.

Take time off and learn to work at a more moderate pace with some breaks. Or keep doing the crazy productive days but take your time off more frequently, maybe even push for 4 day weeks.

[ki_]

oh yes, i absolutely agree. That was just an extreme example of recent years. It almost never happens. but it does happen. that was my point. the fact that i sometimes WANT to work that much.

[Olphs]

I can relate to this, have had similar periods as well. It always seems to get better just to get worse again.

Haven't figured out the cause either, maybe it's some mild burnout? Maybe it's depression? Maybe it's some kind of mild bipolar disorder with quick cycles? Maybe it's just who I am? Maybe it's something I do/don't do, something I eat? Maybe it's the company changing?

I don't know so many possible explanations I guess