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by notacoward
1493 days ago
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> I hold unto my right as a mammal to be inefficient and sit drooling looking at trees. OK, I get this. Really, I do. I've spent many many hours doing "nothing" just like this, and those have generally been happy times. But ... how would that change if you had a lot more free time? Could you spend all day every day in such a state? Would it be healthy if you did? The reason I ask is that I've had to grapple with that question since I retired. Probably will even more so when my daughter leaves for college. And as much as I enjoy doing "nothing" I find that I just can't do it all day. I have to be doing something, which brings us right back to the issue of low-effort low-reward activities (e.g. doomscrolling on the internet) vs. high-effort high-reward activities (e.g. hobbies, community involvement, travel). I force myself to do the latter first so I don't lose the ability to do hard(er) things, and there's still plenty of time left over for the low-effort stuff. I suggest that your "war" only needs to be fought because you don't have enough total free time, and it will seem like a very different war when that changes. |
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Since i am on sickleave due to anxiety, stress and skizotypia i dont usually like being alone with my thoughts.
so what ive done with my time is this:
Wake up, fill my thermos with hot water. Leave my apartment.
Drive around on my bike looking for hidden places. It can be an empty lot behind a supermarket or an off-path place in the forrest.
Walk around and study the vegetation. Find a nice place for some instant coffee, chill.
Sit-drink coffee-stare-listen-repeat.
Decide to leave. Bike to a place where there is a lot of people i know. Leave cuz i am too anxious to talk to any of them.
Have a quick chat at the harbour with some strangers.
Go to the library and read a bit of comics or newspapers. Take the bus to another harbour.
Make minor.fixes to my small boat from the 70's.
Go to the swimming hall. chill in sauna and max up the heat. Stare.
Go home, make food for minimum money as an exercise. Eat.
Think about projects i could imagine would be fun. Imagine the details of them. Maybe write them down. Be okay with never doing them.
Watch some hbo.
Plan when i have my kids again "maybe tomorrow?" And where to take them? Usually the beach or the forrest and have fun in the woods.
Go my my bedroom without any devices and sleep.
I live in denmark