[endofreach]

It has just been a few weeks ago that apparently it is unusual that i actively have to fight my thoughts to be able to talk or think thoroughly. Most times i am so busy fighting thoughts that i can only hear words. I „try to focus“ on what people want from me and i it even feels like that is what my mind is focused on. But at the same time i can feel how my brainpower is actively used… It is like white-noise to me, too, but much louder and by now i am used to it so i don‘t really hear anything.

I don‘t know why i wrote this, but your „mind-chatter“ and „white noise“ made me think here is a good place to jump in and see if anyone has anything to say to this… don‘t know… i am just exhausted…