[samh748]

Hi there, sorry to hear about your situation.

I'm actually quite surprised that most comments here focus on external solutions. Personally, the only thing that helped me in the past were inner-world related, things like personal growth etc.

I recently started a post [1] to try to offer guidance on this sort of stuff, so if you're interested or curious, drop me a comment and I'll see what I can do.

Hang in there!

[1] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=31065876