[rjdagost]

What I'm hearing you say, loud and clear, is that you no longer have a sense of a purpose in life. Drugs (legal or otherwise) will not fill that void for you. I do not believe that you can rekindle a sense of purpose just by thinking about it. I would advise you to try new things that sound interesting to you, and keep exploring until you find something you can pour your heart and soul into. Probably something different from, or at least not directly related to, tech.

[rkhassen9]

I second this. You've out grown what used to motivate you. Done that, been there. Time to find what motivates you now. My guess is that with all of your outer success no longer doing it for you, the next threshold would be an inner journey and I believe you will know and be as driven when you find what is the way forward for you.

Look in new places, my friend, trust your inner voice, your inner guidance and intuition.