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I think your problem is confidence, I was like this as a junior engineer, afraid everyone would see how dumb I was compared to them so I never asked for help. Every new employee is different, and nobody comes in knowing everything. They expect you to ask dumb questions, if you don't you're cheating yourself and the team. I learned this the hard way, I took down the company website on a Friday night, the lead dev had to call in from a camping trip with his kids to fix my error. yuppie_scum's post is smart, the job market is hot for anyone who can code, even a little bit! Follow directions and keep learning, probably they won't fire you, and with time you'll get better. If they fire you, move on, learn from it and do better at your next gig. What I did was learn to unblushingly ask questions about the things I didn't understand, and REALLY LISTEN to the answer. Listening is the key, close your laptop if you have to, turn off your external monitor and put away your cellphone. The devs I worked with would carefully explain stuff, and respond to my dumb questions. But if I didn't remember what they told me, they'd stop answering my questions. I learned to use the research skills I learned in school, read up on the tech the team used, take notes, played with it on my own time. Eventually I realized they weren't smarter than me, and if I keep trying, keep researching, almost any problem is solvable. Good Luck! edit: grammar |