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Funny that you post this. I'm having the EXACT same issue and the way I decided to handle it is it restrict myself to weekends. Usually, I would do exactly what you did. Uninstall everything, unsubscribe, etc. I feel like I'm an extreme person so whenever I do something I go all in. Same issue as you, ladder really made me want to play. I was top 11 in NA and in terms of my rank I was top 0.01%. People in the game would always invite me and constantly want to play with me. It's super rewarding being super good at something. The issue is, with these competitive games, is that they take everything away from you and make your life unbalanced. I don't have an answer from you, apart from quitting entirely seemed like the wrong approach to me. At the end of the day, you're playing the game for a reason, it brings you joy in some way, and this week of not playing taught me that I love everything else in life and I also want to continue to play competitively, it just needs to be balanced (so weekends only.) If weekends only lead to me also playing throughout the week, then I'm going to cut it off entirely, but for now, I think a balanced approach is best. Thinking about why I play really helped me and not playing during the week reminded me of why I love the game and hate the game at the same time. I hate the game because everything in my life is better right now, work, relationship, body, stress levels, etc. You would be surprised how much energy your mind exerts being the best at a game. The reason I love the game reminds me that life is so boring sometimes, I was just watching random YouTube videos and such as they're nothing compared to being the top 0.01% of a game. The ups, the downs, the competitiveness, the feeling of finally getting to the top of the game is unreal. The fact that the game just takes you out of reality, no thinking about work stresses, relationship stresses, it's just all magically gone. Your mind is just on a 1 way track to winning in the game. Amazing. Life is so short, sometimes it's great to get away. I don't have an answer for you really, we're in the same spot. I hope we find a balance between playing our games and living our lives. Harmony. It's the only way, or you're sacrificing something :) |
For me as a fully remote software dev, just after the daily was over and nobody needed to call me for anything I'd just play a couple of hours and then go back to work.
And yes being top of something feels great, I wasn't even close to top 0.01%, but I was top 20 of my country maybe top 10% worldwide and kept improving. I don't know if I was close to my ceiling, I don't think so because I had not started paying private coaches, but I considered it.