| I have had depression for years. Slowly creeping in. Last year three things happened: 1. I got a light antidepressants 2. I switched from smoking weed with tabacco to without tabacco 3. I took ecstasy for the first time Number one lifted my mood. Number two reduced my lethargic and number three Reminded me how it feels to be happy and it gave me back human empathy as well. I was wearing glasses for a long time and that always made the idea of needing help for my brain easy to accept. Why do I accept that wearing glasses is normal and just necessary but my brain has to work 'normal enough' without help? On a side note though: mote depressed you get the less you have to loose anyway right? After all hard depression leads to doing nothing and thriving to end it. You need to realize that this mental state already gives you the chance to do whatever you want. After all if you really fuck it up, you still are at the same point of ending your life. Good luck! |
The middle part of PiHKAL (Phenethylamines I Have Known and Loved) talks about successfully using MDMA for treatment. Interesting book. See https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=30827112