[chousuke]

> Think of a time you really wanted something

I don't think I've really had any such time (or I don't remember. My memory is terrible), which is one of the things the rational part of me struggles with. I kind of just adapt to whatever situation I end up in. I guess the problem is that I don't predict future happiness so I don't have any driving force to struggle to attain it.

I've been in this situation for long enough that I don't have any way of telling what is and isn't "normal".