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> The thing is I don't even like hanging out with people most of the time but I get into this space where it feels like a biological necessity.

I cringed when you said this but it’s 100% true. Humans regulate each other’s nervous system. Still I think this downplays the value that others bring to your life. In the right amount and quality people add so much more to life than scratching a biological itch or more precisely: the pleasure of scratching the itch is far greater than the pain of not scratching.

> how can I learn to be alone without feeling lonely?

By having real social connection with people i.e having a vested emotional interest in the lives of others and vice versa. You don’t have to spend a significant amount of time together. This might be the hard part though as getting to this point requires spending time together and shared experiences. A combination of bad and good experiences is ideal.

Also learn to tone down whatever negative perceptions you have about yourself. A lack of compassion and self respect can push you to enter into compromised or toxic relationships in order to sooth these negative emotions with feelings of validation. By all means hold yourself accountable but at the same time realise you are doing the best you can do for someone with your level of consciousness.