[_8j50]

You're used to company and now it's hard to come by. It can be very hard for someone in your situation.

Two important things I can comment on that might help;

1) It's not ok, there are people who will tell you to adopt and enjoy your own company but that's like telling a hungry person dieting is good for you. It's ok only if that is what you wanted originally not if you are being forced to being alone. You yourself seem to be trying to make loneliness work this way.

2) Learn to get along with and to be nice to yourself. The primary relationship for any human is the one we have with ourselves. It is difficult to be a good company to others when you are a bad company to yourself.

The worst thing about loneliness is not that it can crush you (it can if you let it) but that you can learn to endure it and then it becomes your prison. It can always get worse and the longer it takes the longer it is going to take.