[questiondev]

wow, and here i am coding off and on since i was nine years old (port scanners, bots, blogs, ezines, chat servers, simple games, apps etc) cd and feeling like an imposter, so i don’t bother applying to tech jobs because i think i am not good enough and yet guys like the guy you worked with are getting all sorts of positions. maybe i should push myself more. having social anxiety sucks

[kjuulh]

Honestly, at least in my country it doesn't take a lot to get a programming job, at least if you can show you've got some skills. Though most companies won't take a look at you if you haven't got a diploma. If you've got the interest go for it. You cannot really lose anything by applying to some companies other than maybe a bit of time.