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It’d be interesting to know - what are the expectations made of you? In this environment, I’d expect there to be dedicated support for teams operating their services - i.e. SRE/DevOps/Platform teams who should be looking to abstract away some of the raw edges of operating at scale.

That said, I do think there’s a psychological overhead when working on something that serves high levels of production traffic. The stakes are higher (or at least, they feel that way), which can affect different people in different ways. I definitely recognise your feeling of exhaustion, but I wonder if it maybe comes from a lack of feeling “safe” when you deploy - either from insufficient automated testing or something else.

(For context - I’m an SRE who has worked in quite a few places exactly like this)