| I’m 32 and in a similar situation. I lost my mother and both brothers within last 6 months of last year and ended up questioning everything. Even though I was in this moment of time where I was questioning everything I couldn’t actually move forward with any of the changes I wanted. The big mental changer for me was the gym. Not necessarily for health but because everyday I’m pushing myself to failure and also seeing improvement. Even though I have hobbies like photography and being a drummer to be honest I would be frustrated at that type of failure and avoid it. Maybe the lack of feeling creative is too personal to face right now. Since the gym I feel like that’s improving and I am slowly reaching out to a social circle again and seeing new opportunity. It has improved my mental clarity and personality too. I am lucky to have my girlfriend of nearly two years and I was preparing to propose before all this happened. I would question that too but I started to realise I didn’t want to be this person running from my problems in different countries again. I didn’t wait for the perfect time but did the best I could and that went well. I suppose for me in the area of finding a partner was finding faith in myself again. At around 30 I was about the same and hadn’t been with anyone I could see marrying. I couldn’t seem to attract the type I saw myself settling with. I think that changed with the gym too and applying focus to my new interests at the time like photography. After I stopped trying with my current fiancé, maybe a year and a half of our first meetup, she started to see who I am and what I could be because I was just applying myself to improve my own life. I think we all like to see that in each other no matter gender or preference. It can just be within your friendship circles after you grow out of drinking buddies. I think you know it’s not your too old to go out a be that guy again but you don’t want too. Trust me I have old friends your age who are still acting like their 20 and reliving all the same mistakes. Right now you just need a physical parallel to what your mind needs to do. Fail early, learn and adapt, improve and grow |