[throwaway020222]

It's the first time I've been married so I didn't know what to expect. Even though we married last year, we've been living together for a few years now.

But it's hell for me, I want freedom, I want time, I don't want to guess how she feels or what she needs all the time. She says I should buy her flowers and that kind of stuff more often but doing it feels like a chore to me.

5 years ago I also wasn't sure if I wanted to be a parent or not, but I was more leaning towards the "yes". I think having a kid would be a higher goal that could motivate me to stay together with my wife. After deciding I don't want kids (with any woman) my long term relationship/marriage just crumbled like a deck of cards.