[pygar]

I was kind of like you and after honest reflection I concluded that I wasn't motivated to do things because I had no one to share experiences and the fruits of my labour with.

You say you have "No relationships. No family. No activism. No religion" - personally, for me, this created a nihilistic despondency. Are you lonely? Are you happy with this situation?

You also mention certain goals/activities that you would like to peruse and label them as beneficial. I would like to humbly suggest that you pick goals that have a practical impact on you.

I don't really know how to express this but IMO watching documentaries and reading books is, for practical purposes, entertainment unless they have some applicability to your life.

For me personally, I came to the conclusion that although I liked the theoretical idea of knowing more things, I lacked the motivation to peruse them if they lacked relevance to my life.