[tasha0663]

> at an early age women are given the impression that sex is their single lever in a relationship or socially

I can't speak for all eras and populations, but I suspect that that anecdote is an outlier.

> I wonder if I'm an oddball

If I may be so bold, you seem emotionally detached from the incident. That itself might be a response to the trauma.

[brnaftr360]

I suppose I can't really say, it's something that happened decades ago. Like heartbreak of high school, it's sort of faded away into emotional oblivion, though it never really excited me. I'd say I can pretty readily identify thoughts and feeling of the events, recollect the environment, the people, but being they were so long ago there's no realistic way for me to verify.