[dusted]

I couldn't not.. I had a fundamental desire to know how to make programs for the computer, it seemed like deep magic to child-me that there were these "things" that could exist in the computer, these worlds.. that were made of "something" and I wanted to know what this something was, the matter that comprised programs..

It took me a while to figure it out, pre-internet days.. I understood that there was BASIC, on the C64, but I saw many programs there which would LIST just as a SYS statement, and some number, and I could understand that that number was not the entire program, and so that there was something hidden "beneath". The machine-code..

So, maybe I was not motivated at all.. There were no external factors, it was and still is, an intrinsic need in me, to understand this stuff, and the world in general, though I fell into the computing rabbit-hole a long time ago, and have only reasonably common knowledge about the rest of the world.