[ill0gicity]

I could say, "tell me something I don't know", and stop there. But where's the usefulness in that?

I began suffering from depression around age 8, but wasn't diagnosed until 32. To me it was normal. I didn't have the language to describe it and everyone wrote it off as me being an introvert. Re-processing my life with the understanding of not just that I was suffering from depression, but how I suffered from it, has been illuminating.

With regard to the topic at hand, it makes sense that I excelled working at a datacenter from 3a to 11a and 7p to 3a. It makes sense that a decade after leaving that job my body and mind still want to keep those hours. And it is a nasty feedback loop of depression, lack of (good) sleep, and poor self-care.