[major--neither]

Thanks for sharing this. I too had a difficult childhood (doesn't everyone?) and I have struggled with depression and debilitating anxiety.

12 years ago I started meditation, and after 10 years of seemingly nothing happening I began to get it. It's been 2 years and the depression/anxiety are just like shadows that are still there but do not affect me.

I am very curious about psychedelics, but afraid to ruin all the work I put in ... But what if it helps me even more! :)

Not sure what to do, but thanks again for posting your experience. It helps. Peace and Love to you brother.

PS: I meditate 2 to 3 hours a day. It took me 5 years just to get a regular habit, then 5 more to get to an hour. After that things seem to go quickly.

[michaelbarton]

Thanks for your sincere reply. I appreciate your honesty in sharing what you’re going through. I am impressed with your meditation habit. Being able to understand the quality of your own mind in that way is something that most people will never achieve in their entire lifetime.

Best wishes you to you too, and for a positive 2022.