[pingsl]

Will you be a little happier when you accept your current place? You are a nobody at this moment, that's fine. But are you going to stay at that place for years? I don't think so from what you have written here.

What matters is you should get clear about what you want and how you will get there.

[aydwi]

That's seems like a helpful approach, I will try and work on this. Thank you!