[jn78]

thanks for asking, i feel you.

few months ago i went through a similar self-trust downturn. i had a nice salary, complete decision making freedom, great team, booming market.. i was getting the job done, but i felt like shit and couldn't trust myself with anything..

now i'm in a process of figuring things out. i'm not there yet, but it turned out the problem we were solving stopped being interesting to me. that made me rely on "best practices" and i stopped being creative. couldn't come up with brilliant/scary shit to do, everything was so predictable..

if you have shitty problems to solve, or not interesting to you personally, you won't be able to engage.

if developing makes you happy, then find problems worth solving in the first place. some time off helps, find some scary things to do. satisfaction is on the other side.