[1ibsq]

I don't know what motivates me and I find that strange. It's something I think about a lot. How do people know what they want? I can come up with (and I do that) a dense net of interests I somewhat have and how they would interconnect and what could come out of it. But at the end of the day, nothing really ever comes to life. It's obvious that one can not rationally construct such thing, but it feels real. I’m serious about what I think, but it seems to not work. I can’t remember the last time I persued an interest that in itself kept me going (other than video games). Something seems to not work and I'm currently in search for a therapist, because all of this has led me to a place that makes life not worth living. But that said, I'm as well curious (as the other commenter) what makes other people drive.