[thevagrant]

It's hard. I'm not consistent but when running daily, anhedonia will depart after 6 to 8 weeks. The first 2 to 4 weeks getting fit is a slog.

The right antidepressant also will make you feel normal but doing exercise or tasks, if the antidepressant is working, it can help dismiss negative thoughts (with conscious effort around your thought patterns)

If you have those negative thoughts enter your mind, you need to practice "not engaging" and clear your mind. Look into mindfulness or guided meditation. It'll take a fair bit of practice but it is very helpful.

"This is pointless. You won't go far" is an emotional response. If you can work on your thought pattern, shift it to "This may seem pointless but I am going to challenge myself, this short term task will lead to xyz goal."

It is hard though and I understand where you are coming from.

Last thing, avoid dopamine traps. Doom scrolling social media or any repetitive trap that feels good but is bad in long run. These give temporary satisfaction and ongoing term cost.

[_yigw]

I started to realize that, I've been depressed and anxious for so long that i don't know how to function in my daily life.