[thiago_fm]

I think you are also requiring a lot of things outside your control go according to what you expect, but not accepting on what they truly are. Almost all things you wrote sounds to me like those pesky #firstworldproblems and yeah, it makes sense that you question some things as you become more senior and have bigger leverage, but it sounds to me as if you want to question everything at the same time, why things aren't just in the best way for you, when you see that you clearly don't have leverage for that, as you can't find a position for you.

You don't have a right to work for certain companies. People hire you to work for them, if they need you. Maybe it isn't about luck, but actually accepting that it is a dreadful process and you need to focus on what is important in order to get that job. If you aren't willing to do those things, no job for you.

It might help if you would take some therapy. I see a lot of emotion on your sentences, like "shitty challenge", "fit fit fit", stupid keywords and so on. It reads mostly as a rant from a frustrated person that can't fit in not because the circumstance doesn't like you, but rather the opposite, you just dislike IT and all the processes involved in recruitment and is not willing to work on getting better and getting through that. Therapy can help you.