[penguintester]

You have an extra "o" when you spelt loser. But no, I've been there buddy, and honestly, still partly stuck in that rut. What really helped me is just going out to meet people. When I think abt the days that depression hits the hardest, it's usually the days when I have minimal to zero human interaction. Something abt regular social interactions is critical for my mental well. I also have had pretty bad social anxiety, but recently have committed myself to getting better at it. Used to think of it as something innate, that other people were borne with but somehow I was passed over. Now I realize it's just a skill like any other, and the more you immerse interact with people, the better you get at it, and the more enjoyable it becomes. Recommend just taking any opportunity you can get with strangers to make small talk with them. Bars are good for this too. Also I noticed that the way you write your messages, strongly signals "depressed person". You need to supress this outward expression of your depressive state as much as possible when interacting with other people. Because as much as society tells you otherwise, nobody really enjoys interacting with a depressed person. So no matter how you feel on the inside, shud try your best to reflect an outwardly normal attitude. BTW, some others have commented seeking therapy. I have mixed feelings abt this. On one hand, people with seriously crippling depression shud definitely seek professional help. On the other hand, alot of self diagnosed "depression" can be simply chalked up to having some bad days, rather than some chemical imbalances in the brain. In the latter case, seeking a therapist just externalizes the solution instead of facing the problem that is yours to solve yourself. What you are feeling would probably continue for the rest of your life, unless you can do something to change it. Anyways, I hope this helped. Don't give up, and always remember that youre probably stronger than you think. The present is not indicative of the future, and even your worst days will give way to a brighter tomorrow