[obviouslyfake]

I have called everyone in my area, many times, nobody could give me an appointment

Already on drugs, but taking them makes me feel more shit, because then i have a thought that i'm a broken person and can't live a normal live without depending on meds

[slater]

OK number one thing to understand first and foremost: you are not a ‘broken person’ if you take medication. It’s a tired trope, but only because there’s some truth to it: a person with kidney, heart, or other organ issues isn’t a broken person because they take medication for their condition, right? Same applies to any of your conditions.

[obviouslyfake]

Instead of going through this and fixing my life, i'm outsourcing it on pills

[mthoms]

That’s not at all accurate. Blaming yourself for having depression is like blaming yourself for having epilepsy. It’s not your “fault”.

It’s important to note that while you might be taking meds, but you might not be taking the right meds, in the right amount.

It took me a while to find the right combination for me. This is very, very common. Everyone is different. People react differently to different antidepressants. Finding the right med(s) is a process. It sucks but it’s worth it. You are worth it.

[sneak]

This comes from a belief that you could fix the problem via some thought process.

Is a type 1 diabetic simply outsourcing their disease to injectable insulin "instead of going thorough this and fixing [their] life"?

Depression doesn't work like that.

You asked for advice because what you were thinking/trying isn't working. Don't be surprised if some of the suggestions are going to be things you haven't tried yet.

[nurettin]

Pills, especially ritalin have the side effect of being really hard to get off once your mind is ready to produce joy again. This might be a hard pill to swallow, but what you need is healthy habits.

[mthoms]

Ritalin is not an anti-depressant.

[nurettin]

It is an addictive upper, I'm surprised everyone I know who had psychiatric help is on it.

[andrew_]

It's common for introspective insight to be achieved only through chemical means. This is why psilocybin is finally being researched as a potential natural approach to certain disorders.

[ISL]

Give https://www.lyrahealth.com/ a try -- when I needed a therapist, they had availability.

[aristofun]

Try remote option, but find the right specialist who will be committed to solve your issues, not just shut you up with drugs like most of them do.

[pureblood]

stop being so focused on yourself.

and you are right to think what you do about taking drugs.

i know, i use to be on drugs. they didnt help me. what helped me was helping other people, for no personal gain.

get some hobbies that produce something useful and people will suddenly start needing your help. build some stuff out in the garage. its very rewarding. i like woodworking, but lots of things will do. something not on the computer.

[mthoms]

Counterpoint: Meds have probably saved my life. I know at least two other people who would say the same.

Meds don't work for everyone. Just because they didn't work for you doesn't mean they don't work for others. It's up to the doctor and his/her patient to determine the best course of treatment.

Intentionally stigmitizing medication is not only contributing to the problem... it can be downright dangerous. Any mental health professional will tell you that.

Your anti-medication rhetoric throughout this thread is not useful. Please reconsider your approach.