[poetically]

This is the zeitgeist so what you're feeling is reasonable. We live in material abundance but spiritual destitution. So unfortunately I don't think there is anything you can do individually that will help other than maybe look into folks like Neil Postman, Alan Watts, Carl Sagan, etc. and read what they wrote to see if it can be applied in your individual circumstances. It's hard to do anything about an individual problem until you understand its systemic causes and can place it in the proper context for analysis.

[obviouslyfake]

I've read Alan Watts, the Stoics and Buddhism stuff

I tried going to Church, to seek community, but i can't pretend i'm religious when i'm not

[poetically]

I'm not religious either but by reading the works of the folks I suggested I have a better sense of what is in my control and what is not so that I can focus on things that I can address and not worry so much about things that are out of my control.

Contemporary consumerist society is isolating for most people because even though they can buy whatever they want it doesn't change the fact that lack of communal structures makes them feel isolated. This is a systemic issue so there is no individual solution.

[fendy3002]

> Buddhism stuff

As a Buddhist myself, have you read / learned about the four noble truths? That teaching is so OP to me.