yeah that was surprising but a lot of people in different fields tend to trust what pamphlets say over what an experienced addict has been through until they realize that the addict and them are a long more similar than they are different. regardless, I got into drugs because I had low self esteem thinking it would “open my mind” enough to jar me out of anxiety. what I did not know is that I was treating the symptoms thinking it would solve the underlying issue of getting my stuff together.