[rootusrootus]

> It's tough but the toughest part you're encountering is the newness of it. When my mom was diagnosed I was a wreck. Then it evened out a bit and now that she's nearing the end, I'm a wreck again. There's an emotional pointedness to these types of things that dulls a bit with time.

That really resonates with me. My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer a few months ago. It was a roller coaster ride of emotions. Now we've settled into the treatment phase; her quality of life improved noticeably from treatment with little in the way of serious side effects, so life is good again. But there is that undercurrent, we know it won't last forever. At some point the treatment will probably stop being effective enough and then everything is going to go pear shaped again.

I wish you the best in what you're going through.

[saltcured]

An observation I have seen shared in the context of progressive or terminal conditions is that one can experience mourning before a death.

This can be a very difficult emotional roller coaster if catches a person off guard, and they haven't explicitly recognized that significant emotional losses have already started accruing...