[floam]

I drank a lot (really, a lot. Like so much you can have a seizure when you try to stop.) when my dad was dying. And didn't visit for a few months because I had the excuse of my toddler I'm raising. I regret not spending more time back up there with him and my mother until the very end. I know he was scared and I wish I was there for more of it.

[diskzero]

I am so sorry alcohol caused you this grief. It can be such a destructive force. I don't know what your current relationship with alcohol is, but mine was not good at all. I have been sober for three years and it has made a huge difference for me. I also know that people can drink responsibly. I can't. If you ever want someone to talk to, please feel to reach out to me.