[casual-dev]

While I see your points, your statements are - as you said yourself - a good example of negativity. Covid for me personally was not that hard on me. I got to spend more time with my wife and less with colleagues at work while working remote. My commute dropped to zero, I had much more free time at hands. I got to work out indoor and outdoor whenever possible. Dropped 60 pounds from March 2020, after entering the first lockdown. I even got tighter with my family during these times. And I could finally tackle some of the projects I had left for dead.

I cannot claim to be the epitome of positivity though. I have to work on my views of people in general. Anti-Vaxxers and climate change have left me with deep emotional cuts, consider it weltschmerz.

Are you by any chance driven by outside 'pings'? Extrovert people that rely on direct feedback from others really had/have a bad time. Maybe this realisation or thinking about it may help you understand why you are feeling this way. In the end, every negative situation e.g. a global pandemic, need some form of personal resilience. How to get there is unfortunatley on you to figure out.