[krono]

There's a reason people become addicts. They must feel there's something to be gained or kept.

    This week I'm going to get my shit together, these will be my last cans of RedBull and my last all-nighter.

    New bottle... last one too. Fuck it, I really need a good nights rest. Everything will be much better after finally having had a chance to mention this insane workload during tomorrow's perf meeting.

    Alright, I've got this. At 35% leverage I'll have it all back in no time.

I've worked and spoken with many addicts. Even after them having been clean for years, many never seem able to defeat that false idea of there being light at the end of the tunnel / benefit.

Just imagine there are people, some of whom are probably reading this too, whose job it is to artificially recreate or induce this dark and destructive part that exists in each and every one of us.

[pjmorris]

> Just imagine there are people, some of whom are probably reading this too, whose job it is to artificially recreate or induce this dark and destructive part that exists in each and every one of us.

I can imagine that there are people addicted to doing this engineering, maybe believing that with a tweak or two more the negative effects will disappear. I'm reminded of 'Crazy Eddie' from 'The Mote In God's Eye', believing there's a way to engineer our way out of every problem.

[cmehdy]

They feel they can "keep" themselves, while also remarking that their self is deteriorating. It's not so much a love for the thing but a fear of the unknown - and in alcohol's case it's also very very much a chemical addiction that bypasses logic.

[krono]

  >  false idea of there being light at the end of the tunnel

What I meant to say was light at the end of the tunnel if only they keep behaving or using as they are.

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