[gchamonlive]

> it felt like we were cheating. Feeling comfortable enough on drugs to discuss certain things is great, but it also highlighted we weren't communicating completely honestly without drugs

Take my input with a grain of salt. I am no professional.

But to me it is just like saying it is cheating to go to a therapist and talk about things you won't normally talk about. The whole point of these experiences is to shift your perspective so you can explore things under different lights. Doesn't make these experiences any less valid. You shouldn't beat yourself because it was chemically induced state of openness, it is awesome you can go there if you need to, as long as the altered state doesn't become a refuge.