[nick__m]

When I read your post I was about to post something similar to the reply you got from sillysaurusx but I will do it anyway!

I to suffered from loneliness and the terrible depression that come with it. A visit to the campus doctor was life changing. Depression, anxiety and ADD were making socially awkward and they needed to be treated before I could work on forming meaningful relationships.

The depression began to go away on the first drug I tried : Paxil. However it made me feel mentally challenged so we had to try a few drugs before finding something that work while having acceptable side effects, for me it was Cipralex and Vyvanse.

I initially had troubles to accept that I needed antidepressant but like sillysaurusx said. You don't judge someone with diabetes because he needs insulin, why would blame someone depressed for needing escitalopram.

Please consider seeing a doctor, depression and loneliness have killed too many sensible insightful persons like you !