[vulpesx2]

As cliche as it is to say – the answer to your question is probably within yourself. You feel like you're wasting your life, because you have aspirations. They may not be immediately apparent but they're there. And unfortunately I can't tell you what they are.

Uncovering them will take reflection & time. While you do that work of finding them, don't be so hard on yourself. Chances are you've had more of an impact on the world than you give yourself credit for.