[retrac]

It's not my experience. I do believe it's riskier than simply abstaining long-term. You are, in fact, reminding yourself of something you found so compelling once that it derailed your life. But personally, I have been addicted to amphetamine and alcohol/benzodiazepines badly enough in the past, that I could not discontinue them suddenly due to the severity of the withdrawal. Yet in recent years I have felt able to get drunk at a party for example, without serious cravings in the weeks that follow. And I'm back on amphetamines for ADHD which I take to schedule. I won't lie though; the thought of taking two pills instead of one does occur to me not infrequently. The temptation is probably always there once you know what it's like. But my experience is that no, it doesn't automatically derail necessarily.