| I second cushychicken. Tons of us had similar experiences. Mine were sometimes rough, sometimes beautiful. More rough though. It can help if you have any inclination for the performing arts. Music, dance, theater. Many more of those people are accepting of differences and or quirky. I was and value those people and times highly. But yeah, hang in there. This all does improve. Edit: I am getting older now. There is another phase! You will eventually find your place among peers and do what you all do and it will be amazing. Family, work, friends, projects, all of it. Then, at some point your own grow, and you get to help them, plant seeds. My granddaughter has this spark we are talking of here. And she is young, and I can share, and remember back to when I was young. My own kids had no real interest, but did learn the basics. Fine. They can do if they need or want to. But this little one in my care now is so damn much fun! Call it the circle of geek nerd life. And this all reminds me... are there older mentors you could hang with at times? If so, you should do it. I learned so much and it really helped with the angst. Older people, who I looked up to, saw me as I am and it all being fine, their nudging and teasing more out of me were very good times. |