[the_only_law]

No issues, I get what you’re saying. Funny though, although it’s mostly a “rose colored glasses” sort of thing, I think fondly on my time working shit dead end jobs because I was at least working towards something better whereas now I have to constantly question whether I’ve peaked.

> Pardon my language but: the fuck is the point even?

When you find out let me know. Some people seem to get lucky enough to have all sorts of other, non work things to keep them going, family, etc. so I suppose if you have that it’s motivation.

> I'm not sure I understand why you bother to work at all?

Because the alternative is throwing away both my past and any potential for the future, even if it looks grim. As stupid as it is, I’ve thought about though, if not at least because it would give me a blank slate and something to work towards again. Though the few fleeting moments of content was I find are generally at times I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t wageslaving the rest of the time.

> If you don't find anything in the world interesting, what gives you the will to live and not commit suicide?

There’s plenty of things I find interesting, just nothing that anyone would ever pay me to do. Maybe they aren’t commercially viable, maybe they’re not really career related things, or maybe I’m not smart/wealthy/educated enough to take them on.

[gavinray]

Damn that's really sad actually =/

I and my partner don't have family either really. We have living families, but not the way most people consider family I think.

  > There’s plenty of things I find interesting, just nothing that anyone would ever pay me to do. Maybe they aren’t commercially viable, maybe they’re not really career related things, or maybe I’m not smart/wealthy/educated enough to take them on.

This hits close to home for me. I got lucky with my interests/hobbies, but your scenario is identical to my partners.

6 years of a wildlife biology + animal behavior degree and she says she can't find a job doing what she wants.

I'm convinced it's possible, but that it would take a lot of hunting people down, knocking on doors, networking, emailing random people, basically taking every measure and avenue available.

I could also be wrong though, who knows.

But, she doesn't want me to do that and has something else she's doing so I go "Okey, if that's what you want."

I have no idea what it is you like to do, but if there's any earthly way for you to do it for a living, or make your living off of something tangential IMO you should quit tech and do that.

I'm sure you have pursued that at this point though.