[PaulHoule]

I think my brain runs at twice the cycle rate as other people's brains but the cycles are not so good so I make mistakes.

My reaction time is about 20-30% faster than my teenage son. I beat him at chess consistently even though I inevitably make one or two boneheaded mistake(s) early on but I have a good understanding how to open up and control the space I keep the pressure on relentlessly.

People have always told me not to sweat it about the mistakes that I make and that the fear of the mistakes is just going to cause more mistakes and maybe they are right.

In software I know I do exceptionally well at figuring out things like "where do I pull down data in this React application so that it can flow to all the places it needs to go" and it drives me up the wall that most people go about that kind of thing randomly and wonder why the layout is jumping up and down all the time but don't seem concerned that the render() method gets called 15 times when it only ought to get called once. Despite that, my boss catches an occasional howler of mine during a code review but that's why he does a code review.

I am in the process of rewriting my own internal "software" for interacting with people and I wouldn't know how to explain it or what I am doing except that I read a biography of Benjamin Disraeli and learn from it or watch an episode of Quantum Leap and see it as "performing arts about the performing arts" as opposed to science fiction.