[Xplune13]

I've had a similar experience like that. I too have bad social anxiety. It's like in my head I'm watching myself in a third-person view and imagining my response to different people in different scenarios even before doing that activity. Sometimes that third person view is of a person I know (or I am meeting) and I see how my responses or reactions are to the scenarios that might happen.

I've had this for like 5-6 years now and it is at an all time high right now. This constant wandering mind then brings me a lot of anxiety and questions over why did I think the way I did.

I also don't care what people think of me when I'm consciously thinking about the topic, yet I cannot explain this automatic response checking in my head.