Tell HN: Long Term Suicide Planning

[sensorsbroken]

I took major steps towards completing suicide back in 2018 and have held on since then. Things have deteriorated since then. Afraid to go but it's time. I pray for forgiveness.

If I'm crazy, I want to die. If I'm not delusional, then humans are truly shit (e.g. reddit [reddit is a ycombinator alum 2005/2006] stalking in 2009 and dozens of incidents since) and I want to die.

Fuck you, reddit scumbags and your Putin worship from long ago. Creepy ass scumbag fucks with data and algos. Good riddance. Get me off this ape planet.

Au revoir.

[mikebos]

Please talk to a real person. For America: 1-800-273-8255 For The Netherlands: 0800-0113

If you're in another country there is most likely a local equivalent. Please talk to someone!

[underseacables]

I have a moral conflict with suicide. On the one hand, I think life is precious, and we should hold onto it and try to make the best of it as we can. I am agnostic, I don’t know what comes next, so I feel like I need to hang on and do the best I can here because it may be the only life I have. However, I am also very fiercely supportive of a person‘s right to self-determination. If someone is intent on ending their life, I will not stand in their way, nor should the government.

Almost 40, I have a wife and children, I could never dream of leaving them and so no matter how bad things get, I’m always reminded that I have something better to live for. I cannot imagine what it’s like for someone who doesn’t have some thing or someone to live for, or something to look forward to an aspire to day after day. Nevertheless, life is what you make it, and it is your life to live or end.

[frnkng]

I know: it hurts, to see and feel all that. It really hurts. All the time.

BUT: It is pointless to go. Who shall prevent all the madness from happening when all sane people are gone? The world needs those people who go against wrong doers of all kinds.

[rvz]

Maybe you should close all your accounts on all social media and stay away from social media for a while. Social media sites like Reddit, and Twitter are designed to cause outrage.

[LatteLazy]

I think you should stay off reddit (it helped my mood). I hope you get some help, but I'm not doing great either so I think I understand. All the best mate :)

[slosh]

I don't want you to do that.

[sensorsbroken]

The user morpheos137 has reminded me of why I want off of this malicious scumbag ape planet. Good riddance.

I haven't eaten in two days and ran out of drinking water today.

[underseacables]

I suggest looking at a book called “Final Exit.” If you are intent to do this, there is a better way to go about it, although I hope you will hang on for a better tomorrow.

[sensorsbroken]

Thanks, did that, had the helium apparatus all ready to go and started the inhalation. Backed out and decided that a peaceful method was not the answer for me.

I won't starve myself. Just out of money. I have a better method ready.

Thanks.

[brador]

Food banks have food and don’t ask questions. Talk to real people to get a new outlook on life, avoid reddit it is bad for you mental health.

[morpheos137]

Stop letting other people control your life.

[dang]

We've banned this account. Please see https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=27740600.

Harassing any other user like you did in this thread is not acceptable, let alone when someone is expressing suicidal feeling. I don't believe that you intended to harass them, but the way you behaved in this thread was so bad as to be breathtaking. You can't help anyone like this on the internet, and you certainly can't treat other people like this on HN.

If you don't want to be banned, you're welcome to email [e-mail] and give us reason to believe that this won't happen again on HN ever.

[sensorsbroken]

Bro, you need to do some serious re-evaluation. You just told me that I'd be doing the gene pool a favor by offing myself. My self worth is non existent and I'm suicidal and on edge. You're malicious, insensitive, and you deny my report about being a sexual assault victim, even going as far as to conflate that with your amateur perception of a serious mental illness.

Do you have any idea what that's like trying to come forward about a serious sexual assault incident and being told that I might be imagining it? I'll tell you. It causes suicide, you lowlife troll. Go talk to military investigators on behalf of male on male sexual assault victims. You know what they do, scumbag? They choose suicide before reporting it, scumbag. It's a shameful tragedy that you will likely never know. Remember that next time before dropping your troll suicidal nudges.

God damn mother fuck this ape species. dang, I'm out. So thankful to be almost gone off of this ape planet.

[sensorsbroken]

User morpheos137 clarified the reality I was denying: the problem is me and that the world is better off without me.

I will try to finish suicide now and do the gene pool a favor.

Thanks.

[morpheos137]

Please do not distort what I said. I said seek help. Why are you still ranting on hackernews instead of seeking help. Your problem is your problem.

[sensorsbroken]

You literally said the gene pool is better off without me.

Do you believe that your comments are in any way helping? Possible that your comments are harmful?

[morpheos137]

No I didn't. What I said was seek help or GTFO. If you would rather GTFO of life than seek help that is your choice not my choice. At least GTFO of hackernews because clearly being here is not helping you. In the final analysis nobody is going to save you by keyboard. If you want to be saved that is your responsibility not some anonymous stranger's who does not even know if you are trolling or seeking attention or whatever.

[sensorsbroken]

I dont want to be saved

I want to raise awareness about the extent of malice that is going on with silicon valley properties and how that's crossed over into real life.

Reddit only exists due to ycombinator.

[readflaggedcomm]

Those are some inflammatory accusations.

[sensorsbroken]

lots of people have been targeted and stalked using reddit. is is really inflammatory?

as for putin worship, anyone who used the site back then remembers how fond reddit users were of him.

[readflaggedcomm]

But all those people are banned and shadow-banned now.

[sensorsbroken]

Indeed they are, indeed they are. Yet, true.

[sensorsbroken]

four reddit incidents total

#1 2009 #2 2014 #3 2014 #4 2018

#4 was a celebration of sorts

[readflaggedcomm]

I'd be interested in reading about this some place where you won't be silenced. I'm amazed you can post so many comments without being throttled, like I am. Don't let these scummy sites destroy you.