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It's a shame you weren't able to finish the PhD without doing presentations. I think, depending on having an understanding prof, it should be possible.

A point in life comes where you have spend enough time being a generalist, trying to brush up on your weaknesses. Time to enjoy and sharpen your strong points. The only negative here are your feelings towards yourself. Why not embrace yourself as you are, and role with it. If anything, your life will be more enjoyable and who knows you may once realize you worried for nothing when you drop the worrying about the worrying.

Easier said than done of course ;)