[GekkePrutser]

I can feel that wish for randomness though. I really hate having my days tightly ordered. It makes life really boring for me if I know exactly what I'll be doing at what moment during the next week. The same with holidays, I can't stand when I'm with someone that wants to plan every part of a trip in advance. I want the freedom to explore, and to spend more time on the things I find interesting.

The flip side of randomness is the lack of a feeling of accomplishment and of feeling of working towards a goal. But I do think these things are largely societal values imposed on us. When I realise I don't care about spending my time wisely it bothers me a lot less.

I manage to be plenty successful in work too. Not super much but at a level I'm comfortable with.

[lanstin]

Nothing makes me happier than to go down a new road and see where it leads. I am glad I don’t live with anyone judging my behavioral correlates (just kidding my wife can glance at me and tell how much I have eaten or how much coffee excess I have enjoyed; it much judging really but awareness for sure.).