[fridif]

If you don't desire to seek medical help, the best thing you can do is stop self harming and stop caring about all the possible negatives you are imagining.

I've gotten fat from all the stress of being a working man. I need to stop caring about all of the pitfalls and just live my life.

[rejectedandsad]

You're obviously right. I started going to therapy and it helps (and I've stopped) but it still hurts.

[fridif]

Good luck to you my friend. May you find some mental ease soon.