I think everybody has their own breaking points but mine was today. If I hadn't of spent so much of my life here I probably would have just left and been done with it.
Are you ok? I don’t know you but your recent comments are hostile and I assume abnormal.
Please seek professional help outside HN. I don’t mean this in an insulting way, there is no shame in asking for help, but the internet is a bad place to get it.