[coldtea]

>This is who I say I am. This is who I strive to be. This is who I work to be. And it’s great.

Great? Sounds like anal-retentive buying into all kinds of cargo-cult (from self-help gurus, quantified self, nutrition "experts" etc.), micro-measuring your life, and playing macho.

Guess what, in the end you'll die too, and having enjoyed little in the process.

And all this weakness worrying points rather to some not treated personal issues from the author's past.