[pvarangot]

I'm really sorry you have to live with that. Yeah few people understand how a manic episode works, that can definitely be masked as being a functional person but you are still harming yourself. Maybe it's time to change your medication? The brain changes as you age, maybe you can have a better quality of life if you try new stuff.

[gregf]

In the process of changing my meds again. Sadly they never last longer than 6 months to maybe a year. It's a frustrating process honestly. So, I tend to lie as to how well I'm doing just due to the fact I don't want to take a dive into a deep depression for months while they work out the kinks again. I guess the mania is better than the depression, even though I know it's unhealthy. Well they both are so, not sure what I can do till the science improves.