[browningstreet]

This may or may not be what you’re pointing at, but I’m a goal oriented person. Running and strength training I practice with metrics, programs, and progressions. I love it and have made great strides. I’m a state record holding weight lifter. I’m also a secular Buddhist and I meditate.

But I had a moment about ten years ago. It came from nowhere, though there was a lead up. I was doing something, relaxing but vigorous, and I felt all my self-imposed limiting thoughts and beliefs drop away. It happened in an instant and there was a mental and physical manifestation of the moment, it was tremendous. It lasted about 20 minutes and then it changed again.

I remember those 20 minutes very clearly. It upended everything I felt about my existence. It was like a drug trip, but not. It may have been a blink of enlightenment, though I wouldn’t dare to characterize it as such. It’s hard to define, but it’s been defined in all kinds of literate.

I’m not trying to recapture that, but I do try and live my life with the knowledge that it’s out there. Perhaps it can be approached, perhaps it can return again, in an instant. It came during a doing, that much is clear. I’ll keep doing.