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People said I was talented, and I always loved math and physics. I went to prep school for math and physics, and my emotional state did not allow me to pass the class.

In the modern world, we value merit and motivation over everything else, we don't care about aspirations or self-determination. There will always be a barrier or a filter to stop people from doing what they really want to do. We want people to work hard to prove they want something, and we don't really value what people like, we only value competitiveness.

Problem is, we don't understand a lot about motivations, and merit is a myth. People will always fall back to classical argument of natural selection and survival of the fittest to explain how the world is unfair.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Myth_of_meritocracy

In the end, "raising to the top" or asserting one's position in the world, and not feeling like a loser, those things don't matter. There are plenty of people who find their place in the world, but who will still feel like they're missing something once they reach it.